Fractured.

My ALian. I’m grinning as I write to you tonight.

I’ve been listening to “Out of hiding” by Steffany Gretzginger all day. I’m still listening as I type this entry.

Just this evening, I was meditating on the lyrics of Pieces by Steffany Gretzginger too. And one line caught me “Your love is not fractured”. I want to share lyrics of the two songs.

Unreserved, unrestrained
Your love is wild
Your love is wild for me
It isn't shy, it's unashamed
Your love is proud
To be seen with me
'Cause You don't give Your heart in pieces
You don't hide Yourself to tease us
Uncontrolled, uncontained
Your love is a fire
Burning bright for me
It's not a spark
It's not just a flame
Your love is a light
That all the world will see
All the world will see
That You don't give Your heart in pieces
You don't hide Yourself to tease us, no
You don't give Your heart in pieces, no
And You don't hide Yourself to tease us
Your love's not fractured
It's not a troubled mind
It isn't anxious
It's not the restless kind
Your love's not passive
It's never disengaged
It's always present
It hangs on every word we say
Love keeps its promises
It keeps its word
It honors what's sacred
'Cause its vows are good
Your love's not broken
It's not insecure
Your love's not selfish
Your love is pure

And Out of love:

 Come out of hiding
You're safe here with me
There's no need to cover
What I already see
You've got your reasons
But I hold your peace
You've been on lockdown
And I hold the key
'Cause I loved you before you knew it was love
And I saw it all, still I chose the cross
And you were the one that I was thinking of
When I rose from the grave
Now rid of the shackles, my victory's yours
I tore the veil for you to come close
There's no reason to stand at a distance anymore
You're not far from home
I'll be your lighthouse
When you're lost at sea
And I will illuminate everything
No need to be frightened
By intimacy
No, just throw off your fear
And come running to me, woo-ooah

And oh as you run
What hindered love
Will only become
Part of the story

Baby, you're almost home now
Please, don't quit now
You're almost all to me, yeah.

My favourite line in out of hiding is the one that’s says “there’s no need to be frightened by intimacy. If you know me from a few years back you’ll probably relate to a GJ who thought love was a weakness and you know the crazy thing about our mindsets towards physical relationships? It affects our relationship with Our Father.

I think, now more than ever, I realise how broken this world is with people who are deeply hurt. Today, in bible study, I read the story of that boy whose Father told Jesus “Lord, I believe, help my unbelief” and it reminded my heart of the reason we should come to Jesus without filters.

This entry is to remind you that there is no distance, there is no veil, and even if you’ve known a fractured love all your life, even if you try and keep failing to understand how God could love you wholly, flaws and all, it doesn’t change his love. I worote to remind you that you can come out of hiding. You are loved! 💜

This entry may not be for you today, but on the day you need it, trust me, it’ll be here to remind you.

I love you, ALian. 💜

Ps; you can listen to out of hiding here: